6.03.2008

HYC Check In

Oh dear. Where was I? Oh yeah, I was rejoicing in my dietitian's words, enjoying the long weekend, and then blammo! Work exploded and it was annoying as there was no time for blogging - reading, writing or otherwise. Bummer. So, last week I was up 1.2 pounds, to 223.2 and this morning I am up too, to 223.6. Arrrrgh! This is maddening. I feel like I'm moving 1 step forward, 2 steps back. So aggravating.


I was so inspired a couple of weeks ago. Now, I find myself wanting to give up. Not REALLY give up, but stop thinking about it. I may have to put away the scale. My endless yo yo-ing around in the 220's is making me want to cry, or eat a loaf of garlic bread, or both. Add to that the feeling of when I plug in goal weights and dates into calculators and the numbers come back as "You must lose 3.8 pounds per week to make your goal." I don't feel better. Maybe I will secretly weigh myself only once a week. I think that's the only way to combat my anxiety. This is my own personal journey, and I enjoy this community, but I may need to try and focus on the journey and health for the sake of health, not weight loss.


I've decided that this month will be Just Do It June.


Just exercise. Just eat well. Just breathe. Just enjoy yourself. Just do it. Without worrying about the end result.


The trick will be to just do it without throwing reason out the window, still work toward the goal without thinking about it every day, and without zooming back up to 290 pounds. Any miracle advice?

5 comments:

Cammy said...

Just breathe. :)

Maybe putting away the scale for a while IS the right thing to do for a month. You know the things to do for a healthy you, and doing them isn't really dependent on what the scale says, right? So maybe taking the scale out of the equation will ease the way a bit.

dadivastreet said...

I agree with Cammy. Do what you know you are suppose to do. Don't let the scale pressure you. I have not lost the weight I wanted to by this time, but I'm still on track & the clothes are getting looser even if the scale won't move.

Heather said...

oh I can relate! I feel that way about the scale too. I will be so happy to see a loss and then BAM, its up again and so are my hopes. hang in there though and just keep at it. I sometimes lose that inspiration too and you just have ot somehow find it again in whatever way you can. I think you will have a great month this month.

Irish Mom said...

I have a love/hate relationship with my scale too!! I ditched it last week and even though I had a gain this week as well I am determined to get through it. I like the idea of a Just Do IT June!! Awesome idea!!

Carleen said...

you can do it...you can do it... we are rootin for you!