2.14.2008

Happy Palentine's Day!

Oh Valentine's Day. The hype, the horror, the fun. Hearts are my favorite symbol. Ever. When I was a little girl I figured out how to write the capital B of my last name, so that it looked like a heart tilted to the right. Posters of hearts adorned my walls, I drew them everywhere - I have about 735,000 pendants in that shape - and they get worn on a regular basis. I am a giant walking heart! Naturally, Valentine's day has always felt like my holiday. And I would be disappointed each year when I didn't have a valentine. Dumb.

And then I met Mr. Black. Romantic to the core, he actually asked me to be his valentine (we'd been dating since January), and burned me a CD complete with an illustrated sleeve, and published a valentine for me in the local newspaper. And of course, everything was given to me when I woke up, in a gesture so touching, as I drove to work listening to my mix tape of love songs chosen for me, I bawled. It was terrifying to receive sincere kindness and affection in a gigantic wave like that. I think after dating losers who didn't make me feel like the prettiest and best gal in the room, it was hard for me to accept that I deserved to be spoiled. The big girl in me was crying out to be loved, and when it happened, it was overwhelming.

As our relationship has continued, we have both resisted the big Hallmark sell. We don't buy flowers because what a waste of money this time of year! I get red roses for other reasons. And we don't have fancy and expensive romantic dinners- because I'd rather do that just because. We make each other a card, and do something we both enjoy. Usually we go to see a comedy show, but this year, we're going to see my new favorite gay boyfriend, Mika. And festive attire is requested. What the hell does that mean? We are going to be the oldest and straightest people there, and I won't care because "Big Girl (you are beautiful)" is the best work out and sing a long song I have heard in a long time. I'm going to shake my 230 pound butt like crazy and sing out loud and thank my lucky stars that I have Mr. Black to love. Not just today, but for always.

7 comments:

Lidian said...

Oh, Sara, that's lovely. He sounds like a sweetheart, and you deserve no less!

Teale said...

Hearts are my fave too! Love love love them! Happy Valentine's Day to you, friend!

Katie Jane Beth Sue said...

Have fun tonight, chica! I loves ya like a pig loves corn. ;)

Ready Maid said...

Your post today sparkles with the love that lights your life. Thanks for sharing!

fertilehealthy said...

That was such an uplifting post! Just as sparkly as you are! I hope you had a great time!

HappyBlogChick said...

That is the sweetest thing ever. I'm glad you have someone so wonderful in your life.

Did you enjoy the show? I hope so.

Heather said...

that sounds like so much fun! I hope you enjoyed yourself, and Im glad that you have somoene who can show you that he loves you every day, not just on a commerical holiday.