12.16.2008

HYC Check In

Here is what happens when I stop exercising, and still allow myself to eat sweets. I will gain about 1.4 pounds a week, on average. My clothes still fit, but I feel squishier, softer. I dread posting my weight here. And it’s my party, so I can make the rules and say “No weigh in today!” which I seriously considered today, but I know that no one cares how much I weigh more than I do. Not writing down the number will not change the fact that it is there. I am on the border of beating myself up and throwing up my hands and saying “Screw it. Put on 10 pounds in December. Who cares?” But I do care. I can’t pretend that it doesn’t matter. So, today I’m 224. The world has not ended, I have not turned into a sloth, and I have not given up the dream or goal of continuing to lose weight. I am just not able to focus on it right now. The week of December 29-January 2, I can exercise. And I will.

4 comments:

Lynn said...

Good for you! Life happens, and there's no reason not to celebrate in the form of no workouts and loads of good food. The nice point about a lifestyle change is you have your WHOLE LIFE to accomplish it!

Hanlie said...

It's good that you still care! I'll join you in working out from the last week in December.

aworkingmomsjoy said...

I agree with Lynn. This is a time of year when we can't stress about our wt to the point where the holidays are no longer fun and anticipated, kwim? Make the best choices you can and enjoy the season. Next year will be here in two weeks!
Keep up the good work.

Heather said...

good for you! you shouldnt feel as if you cant post your weight on here. I know there are days I weigh in where Im up and know its because I had lunch out or went out to dinner the night before. but I dont always post that because I feel bad somehow or that Im making excuses. but who really cares but me? probably no one else. it is what it is and the world doesnt end as you put it. you can get through these holidays and then really focus on getting back on track.