Oh Miss Krissie over at Questions for Dessert has an excellent point. Go read her post on positive self talk, don't just take my word for it. She challenges us all to write down positive fabulous wonderful things about ourselves. Today is a day when I have been having some negative thoughts too, and I have more to say about that, but this is better, for now. I can't wait to read everyone's list!
So here's mine.
The "I LOVE ME" List
1. What do you absolutely love about your body?
I love my hair - it is pretty thick and not greying. I have pretty hands and I like my boobs, even though they are shrinking! UPDATE: It is now morning, and I am reminded of other things - I love that after 1.5 years of working out, I have a super strong quad muscle that I can feel when I flex. I also love that my coloring allows me to wear red lipstick, and that I have a very expressive face.
2. When did you surprise yourself with your physical strength?
When I returned to Pilates class this week and I could kind of do a push up. I haven't ever in my life been able to do a push up. And, I got my feet over my head - in Pilates class too, not in a sexy way! Oh, and the teacher used me to illustrate a move, and I did it well, despite being the biggest girl there who can't do everything. That was a great feeling.
3. When were you braver than you ever thought you could be?
When I had to confront a family member about their self-destructive behavior, and it worked, they got help. Close second - posting my weight on the internet. That takes courage, baby.
4. When did your self-control blow you away?
Actually, tonight. I'm on my period and craving carbs and fats in a bad way. I indulged today in a bagel and cream cheese, and chocolate, and then I just stopped. I wanted more and then I made myself stop and evaluate. I had to talk myself down - and I realized that it won't make my cramps any easier, and there will be other days to eat cheese and bread. Am I the only one who talks to themselves like this?
5. What is your proudest moment ever?
It is a tie. Getting married is an amazing feeling. But for a sense of personal accomplishment, I was second choice to play the role of Dorine (the wonderful saucy maid) in the play Tartuffe, and at the last minute, they fired the original actress and asked me to do it, I learned all my lines in 7 days, and got rave reviews in the newspaper. While I was also acting in the pre-show before Tartuffe. It was so much fun!
6. When was the last time you felt absolutely beautiful?
Saturday night when I put on the too big dress and cinched it and my husband gave me beautiful compliments. And my coworkers told me I looked skinny and beautiful! Dancing with my hubby when I feel beautiful is a great pleasure of mine.
7. Why do you deserve to meet your goals?
Because I am working so fucking hard for them. Because I have lived too long in the shadow of fat wondering what life would be like if I were thin. I'm finally ready to find out! And because I am more than a number on a scale, and I would love for more people to see that. And because I blame a lot of other people's behavior and interactions with me on my being fat, so I want to see what life is like on the other side. And because better health means a longer life.
Oh, Krissie- you're brilliant! Thanks, little lady!
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1.17.2008
11.25.2007
5 Weird things meme
Lady Vea tagged me to do a 5 weird things about me. Here we go:
1. I have 3 kidneys. The 3rd is more of a nubbin, but it's there, allegedly. X-rays when I was a kid revealed it.
2. I have to exercise symmetrically. When the water aerobics instructor has us do something on the right side, and then she moves to the left, she makes me crazy if it isn't even. so I have to count on each side. This bothers her as well that I am not following her lead exactly.
3. I can't stand nose air. Like, if you're cuddling with someone, and they breathe through their nose and the air they expel hits my arm or face. I am seriously grossed out. This also applies to the dentist. Thank god they wear masks now. I know this doesn't make any sense.
4. I can't stand avocados or guacamole - I think I am the only one in the world who feels this way, since everyone I know says they are magical. But I am the most fun to go to Mexican food with, as I will always give you my guac!
5. I love to cook, and I am pretty good at most dishes. However, I can't make a decent stir fry to save my life. It always comes out watery and gross. I think that is weird.
1. I have 3 kidneys. The 3rd is more of a nubbin, but it's there, allegedly. X-rays when I was a kid revealed it.
2. I have to exercise symmetrically. When the water aerobics instructor has us do something on the right side, and then she moves to the left, she makes me crazy if it isn't even. so I have to count on each side. This bothers her as well that I am not following her lead exactly.
3. I can't stand nose air. Like, if you're cuddling with someone, and they breathe through their nose and the air they expel hits my arm or face. I am seriously grossed out. This also applies to the dentist. Thank god they wear masks now. I know this doesn't make any sense.
4. I can't stand avocados or guacamole - I think I am the only one in the world who feels this way, since everyone I know says they are magical. But I am the most fun to go to Mexican food with, as I will always give you my guac!
5. I love to cook, and I am pretty good at most dishes. However, I can't make a decent stir fry to save my life. It always comes out watery and gross. I think that is weird.
10.14.2007
4 things Meme
The lovely and talented FatBridemaid tagged me to do a 4 things meme. How exciting! Okay, can anyone tell me how to pronounce meme? Is it like mimi, or is it meem, or is it soft like mem? Any answer would be appreciated, and no snickering at my lack of knowledge.
Four Things I've never done:
1. Traveled to Italy. This is probably the next international destination for Mr. Black and I. I've always wanted to go - and eat my way through the country, of course. Pasta! Piccata anything! Tiramisu! Wine! Oh, the list goes on...
2. Hosted my family at our house for a major holiday. We're hosting Thanksgiving this year. Can't wait!
3. Walked or ran a marathon or half marathon. And I never will. A friend is doing it, and encouraging me to do so, and I can honestly say I would rather have a long and tedious dinner party with George Bush and Rush Limbaugh instead of running/walking for that long. *shudder*
4. Lost 50 pounds consecutively! Let's hope this ends soon.
Four Things I've learned in the last year:
1. Exercise and eating smaller portions really does make you lose weight. I can change my body, and my attitudes about food, so that food doesn't control me.
2. I want to have a child, around yesterday. 2008 should be our year. I want to shape a life, have a family, and watch my husband fall in love with our child.
3. Marriage is hard work. But the effort you put in pays you back tenfold.
4. As a self-proclaimed cat person, I love our pupper dog, The Ding, like a person. That is very surprising to me. Dogs just want to have fun, eat and be loved. Very simple.
Four Jobs I'd Love But Will Probably Never Have:
1. Professional, paid stage actress. Or, actress on a television show. When I was acting, I would sometimes take the first week of a show off, and I could live the life of a professional. Sleep in, run errands or just read or watch TV or hang out drinking coffee until it was time to go to the show. Truly decadent. A TV show would be fun because you could develop your character, and have regular hours. I worked on one film as an actress. It was awful, and all that hurry up and wait. I have tremendous respect for actors who give emotional performances on film. To sit for 4 hours, and then do the same scene over and over again, incredible. What I also love about the stage, is that you don't get to do it over and over again. Once you make that gesture, or inflection, you've released into the theater, the universe, you can't take it back. And then whether it was perfect or not, it's gone. It was there for that moment, and you the next time you perform that scene, it will never be the same as it was the night before.
2. Professional chef/Restaurateur. God, I love to cook. And I've thought about catering, but then your weekends are spent at weddings and parties and when do you get to cook for your friends and family?
3. Independently wealthy philanthropist. 'nuff said.
4. Therapist. I love listening to people, and helping, and trying to help others understand. I fear that I would take home all the sorrow. Or worry too much about them in my off hours.
Four Jobs I've Actually Had:
1. Quality inspector at Union Bay Clothing company. We stood around making sure buttons and their respective buttonholes worked, and that zippers zipped, etc. There I learned you should always wash your clothes before you wear them new from the store. Seriously, don't even skimp on those pants you don't want to wash the crease out of. We used to not be allowed to touch the clothes for a few days, they were so toxic from the dyes. And the bugs that came over from Asia? Fugettaboutit. Huge and disgusting. Wash your new clothes! My other favorite tale from this job was that there was a woman in her 40s who advised us that the quickest way to turn a man on was to play bagpipes for him. She kept her bagpipe record in a special sleeve. Mr. Black says that isn't true. I can't imagine why.
2. Drive thru girl at Wendy's, in high school. Loved working the drive thru. Hated working the grill, and mopping the floor.
3. Mary Kay sales rep. For about 1 minute. I was bamboozled by an overeager sales rep who loved me, and I bought the starter kit like a fool. Kept me in eyeshadow applicators for years.
4. Customer Service/Office Manager/On call person - for a temporary housing company where I languished unhappily for 8 years, in hopes that things would improve. Oy, I was so foolish!
Thanks for the tag!
Four Things I've never done:
1. Traveled to Italy. This is probably the next international destination for Mr. Black and I. I've always wanted to go - and eat my way through the country, of course. Pasta! Piccata anything! Tiramisu! Wine! Oh, the list goes on...
2. Hosted my family at our house for a major holiday. We're hosting Thanksgiving this year. Can't wait!
3. Walked or ran a marathon or half marathon. And I never will. A friend is doing it, and encouraging me to do so, and I can honestly say I would rather have a long and tedious dinner party with George Bush and Rush Limbaugh instead of running/walking for that long. *shudder*
4. Lost 50 pounds consecutively! Let's hope this ends soon.
Four Things I've learned in the last year:
1. Exercise and eating smaller portions really does make you lose weight. I can change my body, and my attitudes about food, so that food doesn't control me.
2. I want to have a child, around yesterday. 2008 should be our year. I want to shape a life, have a family, and watch my husband fall in love with our child.
3. Marriage is hard work. But the effort you put in pays you back tenfold.
4. As a self-proclaimed cat person, I love our pupper dog, The Ding, like a person. That is very surprising to me. Dogs just want to have fun, eat and be loved. Very simple.
Four Jobs I'd Love But Will Probably Never Have:
1. Professional, paid stage actress. Or, actress on a television show. When I was acting, I would sometimes take the first week of a show off, and I could live the life of a professional. Sleep in, run errands or just read or watch TV or hang out drinking coffee until it was time to go to the show. Truly decadent. A TV show would be fun because you could develop your character, and have regular hours. I worked on one film as an actress. It was awful, and all that hurry up and wait. I have tremendous respect for actors who give emotional performances on film. To sit for 4 hours, and then do the same scene over and over again, incredible. What I also love about the stage, is that you don't get to do it over and over again. Once you make that gesture, or inflection, you've released into the theater, the universe, you can't take it back. And then whether it was perfect or not, it's gone. It was there for that moment, and you the next time you perform that scene, it will never be the same as it was the night before.
2. Professional chef/Restaurateur. God, I love to cook. And I've thought about catering, but then your weekends are spent at weddings and parties and when do you get to cook for your friends and family?
3. Independently wealthy philanthropist. 'nuff said.
4. Therapist. I love listening to people, and helping, and trying to help others understand. I fear that I would take home all the sorrow. Or worry too much about them in my off hours.
Four Jobs I've Actually Had:
1. Quality inspector at Union Bay Clothing company. We stood around making sure buttons and their respective buttonholes worked, and that zippers zipped, etc. There I learned you should always wash your clothes before you wear them new from the store. Seriously, don't even skimp on those pants you don't want to wash the crease out of. We used to not be allowed to touch the clothes for a few days, they were so toxic from the dyes. And the bugs that came over from Asia? Fugettaboutit. Huge and disgusting. Wash your new clothes! My other favorite tale from this job was that there was a woman in her 40s who advised us that the quickest way to turn a man on was to play bagpipes for him. She kept her bagpipe record in a special sleeve. Mr. Black says that isn't true. I can't imagine why.
2. Drive thru girl at Wendy's, in high school. Loved working the drive thru. Hated working the grill, and mopping the floor.
3. Mary Kay sales rep. For about 1 minute. I was bamboozled by an overeager sales rep who loved me, and I bought the starter kit like a fool. Kept me in eyeshadow applicators for years.
4. Customer Service/Office Manager/On call person - for a temporary housing company where I languished unhappily for 8 years, in hopes that things would improve. Oy, I was so foolish!
Thanks for the tag!
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